Saturday, June 25, 2011

Cross Training

Okay a little play on words, but very fitting. I am in training, for the upcoming season. I don’t want to mince words with anyone, labels are numerous as it applies to us girls, and even then I may be offending someone by comparing my behavior to theirs. I will for a lack of other labels, and because it fits my theme, just call it cross dressing. I am preparing for the cross dressing season, and I very much need preparation. In the past, summer has usually been the off-season for me, the season when I need to let my male persona out. The time of the year when I don’t shave my legs or other areas, or paint my toe nails. Plus because it gets so hot around here in the summer, it is difficult to wear layers of clothing, like stockings, and slips, shape wear, and clothing on top of that. For me feminine fashion has always been a lot like the fashion industry. Summer collections in January and winter wear in the middle of the summer.

Anyway back to the training, since letting go of cross dressing over five years ago, I let myself go. Now I am trying to get myself back into “shape”! Part of my agreement with myself is that I will not fully dress until I reach a weight goal. This is a realistic goal, it is a weight within the range of where I was five years ago, but not as low as I was in my twenties! That would be my “Ideal Goal Weight” that I would love to reach, but will disregard actual weight below my goal for a desired shape instead. That shape includes a slender waist, some definition if possible, and a larger shapelier posterior. If you have read any of my previous posts, this should be abundantly clear. If someone wants to explain to me why that is simply impossible for a man to achieve, I am willing to listen, until then I will continue to try and achieve my dream figure.

What I hope to do in the next series of posts is to detail the “Bombshell Body Workout” that I am doing, at least the version that I am attempting. It varies slightly from the actual “Bombshell Body Workout” or BSB as detailed by steppingoutsecrets.com. I have come up with my own name for the workout, I call it T90X, I substituted the “P” in P90X, with a “T” to represent the “T” girl, chose whatever variation of the T-word that you prefer to use. The 90 represents 90 minutes, which is the amount of time it takes me to do all the repetitions of all the exercises in my workout, with the necessary rest in between to catch my breath. The “X” can represent what ever you want, the X-factor, I have always liked to think of the X as in X-dress, like the X in railroad X’ing. “Railroad crossing, watch out for the cars, can you spell it without any “R’s” Sorry a silly rhyme from my childhood. By the way you spell it “IT” So that is why I call it what I do, you can call it whatever you want. By the end of July I should be able to tell you if you can just call it worthless. I want to do the workout three times a week, which would be 12 times in July, I have only done it 8 times in June and 6 times in May as I ramped up to the 3 sets of each exercise repetitions. The next fourteen posts will give as much detail as I can about each individual exercise. The BSB workout only includes 12 exercises, but I added two of my own to the series. I will also post them in the order that I perform the exercises.

I like to think there are three levels of effective “Femulation” as Stana calls it. True Feminine Emulation can be achieved at those three levels. Level 1, is fully clothed, I call this level one because female clothing can do a lot to help achieve a feminine looking silhouette. Underneath the clothes you can use any number of various shape wear items to help give you the desired look.

Level 2 is Swimwear/Underwear, to look good in Swimwear or underwear is much more difficult, and you can not rely on all the shape wear options that are available when wearing clothing. Some “T-girls” are able to achieve this Level, and I will definitely admit I admire the girls that can accomplish Level 2. Many more GG’s are able to look good at Level 2 than T-girls, but just as many GG’s fret about how they look as do the non-GG’s.

Level 3 would be “au natural” to use a polite term, although for a T-girl “natural” may be the last word you would use to describe their look. It usually requires some if not much surgery, unfortunately few T-girls are blessed with a “naturally” feminine shape. Some have at least a smaller, slender stature which allows them to achieve Level 3 with a little help from their friends, the doctors. Either medicinally or surgically it is possible for a few Y-Chromosome challenged girls to achieve a very convincing feminine appearance. The percentages of GG’s that look good at level 3 is probably higher than the TG’s but even that my be up for debate. After all who has compiled all the numbers.

Sorry, I got off on a tangent, I tend to do that, I wish to achieve some degree of Level 2 , I don’t think Level 3 is possible for me, not that anyone will probably ever see me at any Level but 1. These Levels are of course just my opinion, and are completely subjective. My opinion is no better than anyone else's, but it is my opinion, so if it only matters to me, that’s fine too.

Monday, June 20, 2011

10K Gold & Silver

Well I ran two more races! I ran a 5K and finished 1st in my age group, but a few minutes behind my previous time. I then ran a 10K, my first, I did okay considering it was my first 10K race, I finished second in my age bracket. I am planning to run another couple of 10K’s in the next month as well as another 5K. I hope to be able to improve upon my times in each, and will be working out more to improve my times.

I am also still doing the “Bombshell Body” workout, my goal is to do it three times a week, but am averaging twice a week. I hope it is doing some good back there, it’s hard for me to tell, as I can’t see myself. I did a few measurements and I am happy with the results. I have lost some more weight, but luckily no inches around my hips and rear. I would love to get a slimmer runner’s build but keep the butt, if that is possible. I figure if I keep doing the lower body workouts along with the running I should be able to keep or build the muscle tone down there.

I mentioned before I have a goal of reaching a waist to hip ratio of .70 or lower, I am currently at around a .75 ratio. I know I still have a bit too lose around my waist, as I still have a bit of a tummy, but most of my pants are fitting looser, time to find a smaller sized pants. If I could get back to the waist size I had in my mid-twenties, I would be very happy. Not sure if that is possible, but it would be wonderful. I did try another measurement, from my front profile I measured my waist width vs. my hip width, I am between .75 and .70, which made me happy! What surprised me more was that from a side profile, I measured my waist depth, front to back, versus my hip/butt depth front to back, I am also nearly .70, which means my butt sticks out behind me about 30% more than does my lower back/waist!

I suspect that if the workout program is able to make any difference in my lower body, the muscle will be in the back, on the gluteus. I doubt that there is much that I can do to make my butt wider at the hips. I can’t control where my body deposits fat, nor can I do anything to change the skeleton underneath. I can only increase the size of my hips and butt by building the muscle underneath. It seems like most women want to make this area smaller, I want mine to be bigger so that it looks more like a woman’s does. I will continue the workouts as long as I continue to see results, or until the end of next month if I don’t see any real progress. I will keep you up to date.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

“I would walk 500 miles, and I would walk 500 more”

I think that The Proclaimers sang it best in 1988 with “I’m Gonna Be” Needless to say that it is often easy to associate music to feelings and experiences, that is the case with me this week. I am careful to keep track of all my activities, and this week I passed the 500 mile mark in my Walking/Running exercise regimen. I plan on continuing the workouts, and have a goal of completing another 500 miles before the end of the year

Thursday, June 9, 2011

I did it!

I finally ran my first 5K race, it has been my goal for this year. I have put it off for several races for various reasons, mostly weather related, but also because I was indecisive. Well I finally just got up the morning of the race, drove down and registered. The race had more than 2300 registrants, with nearly 2100 participants. I am happy to say that I finished in the top 5%. I was in the top five finishers for my age and gender, I would have been 2nd in age and gender, if I could have chosen my gender category. I really didn’t have any idea where I would finish as I have never run in one before. However when I received my race number, I thought to myself, if I could finish in the time of the race number in minutes and seconds, I would be happy. Well I finished two seconds faster! Now I have a benchmark, and I will work to improve on my finish time.

On a side note, I lost a couple of pounds in my quest, and have increased my “Bombshell Body” workout to complete all reps. I will continue to do the workout 3 times a week and run on the other days, I still hope to lose several inches around my middle while increasing the size of my gluteus if possible. I am currently at a hip-to-waist ratio of approximately .75, I would love to get to .70! That is my magic number, my goal ratio! I also felt the need to reward myself, so I went to Nordstrom’s for their Half-Yearly clearance for Women and Children. I found myself a pair of new heels! The one thing I love more than a pretty new pair of shoes, is a great bargain, This pair was both! First they were seriously marked down, second I had a certificate good for an additional $20 off. I walked out with a $120 pair of shoes, for less than $6 tax included!!! Here is a link to a picture of the "Cute Shoes" if you are interested  and the actual 'Rialto' Sandal at Nordstrom’s web site. My feet are feeling a bit overwhelmed about now.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

What I am up to

Many things have changed over the last five years. I have changed, besides growing older chronologically, I have also changed physically. Not in a way that is conducive to the Michelle persona. My concern for maintaining a physique that accommodated feminine fashions waned. Within a few years I added an extra 25% of weight to my frame. Now I had always been slender, so a little extra padding isn’t all that noticeable, but if I had kept all of Michelle’s clothing in a trunk for 5 years, most of it wouldn’t fit me any longer. I have gained at least two pant/dress sizes. I would even live with the extra weight, if it was up to me where it was distributed. The extra padding in the caboose isn’t all that bad, and does give me a softer shape. If I could just move the weight around my waist to my hips, thighs, or breasts (if I had them) then I could live with it.

I live in the real world, and because of that I am actively trying to change my physique for several reasons, in no particular order, health, physique, and feminine persona. Since the beginning of this year I have lost 10% of the weight. I have been training to run a 5K, my first will be in the next couple of weeks. This has lead to me exercising 6 days a week, mostly walking and running, all great for the lower body. I have become obsessed with the idea that maybe if I can’t lose all the weight, at least I can get my waist back. Then in conjunction with my slim waist, I hope to either maintain or increase the added inches to my posterior. I have begun the “Bombshell Body Workout” from http://www.steppingoutsecrets.com, that combined with the running I hope will get me back into “shape”! If I can get back into shape, I have goals and rewards that are conducive to a possible return of the persona of Michelle